Hey Everyone! Sorry I’ve been gone for quite some time.
I actually do have more to upload than just Tokyo Revengers reviews, but lately it’s been a struggle to write.
In the past, this actually happened to me quite often.
Where I’d just feel myself procrastinating. Despite wanting to do something, I ended up spending the day looking out the window.
There’s not even anything terribly interesting outside either – I’d just watch trees blow in the wind. And before I knew it, the day was over.
I’ve never really been good at dealing with my emotions, and usually suppress things until the very last moment demands I confront them.
This was another one of those times where I’ve been avoiding dealing with something, and my avoidance of not wanting to be emotional tends to take over my life to the point where I just…
Procrastinate -> Get upset about procrastinating -> Begin self-loathing -> Have anxiety over things I did not finish -> Lather, Rinse, and Repeat.
To my credit, I haven’t been in one of these spells since I created this website – which is going on 3 years (I believe) this fall.
Which is great from a writing perspective – but probably awful from an emotional standpoint.
Last night, I gave a lot of thought into what I wanted to do and was left with two options:
Either shut down emotionally, and take a hiatus for a few weeks
Try to power through it, and just let whatever it is come out in my writing
I chose the latter, (surprisingly).
I’ve given it much thought, and realized how much of a hypocrite I am to be afraid of my rouge emotions coming through in my writing – especially when I review others work as part of my living.
Since film school, I’ve always been hesitant about “revealing” too much of myself in my writing and work. I try my best to be level-headed, and understanding. Even if that often doesn’t always come through.
But, for now at least, I think I’m just going to let go and see where this takes me.
I’ve been watching a lot of stuff the past few weeks, and what I want to say is still fresh in my mind. It doesn’t help that these shows and tv series are kind of on the depressing side – but it is what it is.
I mean who knows…maybe we can consider this the “Blue Period” arc on the blog ☺.
(Now I’m actually tempted to tag everything I write while I feel this way as such, haha)
Anyway, long story short – I am still writing, and still reviewing things.
Even if I go ghost for long periods of time, I am usually still watching and reading different series – I’m just not talking about it yet.
I even started reading the Tokyo Revengers manga – which is fantastic! I was so sure Attack on Titan had ruined the Shonen genre for me, but in its final arc TR is still proving to be solid.
So – what do you guys think?
Do you think writing while depressed is a good idea to relieve stress and process your emotions?
Have you done something similar in the past?
And… would you all actually be interested in more laid-back blog posts that don’t solely revolve around anime, manga, and kdrama? (I have no clue if constant reviews and theories get old after a while.)
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